I’m at the time in my life where I’m constantly questioning my profession. I’m wondering if I’m in this job for the long haul. I’ve only been back to work for a week and half and I’m already feeling burnt out. Teaching is not giving me the excitement and motivation that I use to feel. Being an educator is an amazing profession. It has brought me so much joy and pride. Although it’s stressful, it has to be one of the most rewarding jobs out there. Making children smile, teaching them new things, and being an adult they can talk to are all great feelings. However, I’m feeling empty. I’m feeling like I have another calling out there. I lay in bed at night and ask myself “what do I want to do with my life?” I want something that gets me up in the morning and makes me feel good about what I’m doing.
It wasn’t long ago that I had aspirations of getting my doctorate and pursuing a career as a college professor. I’m very proud of my time as an adjunct college professor and it’s something I enjoyed at the time. Getting my doctorate isn’t out of the question someday, but just not right now. I guess any realm of education isn’t in the cards for me right now. If it’s not education, then WHAT IS IT?!!
I know that I love writing. I love taking pictures. I love working with children. I also love the idea of working for a nonprofit or opening a school. Or what about opening a store? I was watching The Real Housewives of Orange County the other day (yes, I watch that show every week!) and they were at a place where children come in and publish their own stories. How cool is that? I just want something that gets my creative juices flowing and makes me smile. Something that my children will be proud of me for.
Although it stresses me out to think about changing my profession (whatever it may be), I’m super excited for what the future might hold. One thing is certain…I must find that niche that makes me happy. I need to take a leap of faith so I can be happier for myself and my family. Whether I’m working from home, working in a classroom, or starting my own venture, I want it to be something that I’m motivated to work hard at and something that makes me happy.
“Find out where joy resides, and give it a voice far beyond singing. For to miss the joy is to miss all.” ~Robert Louis Stevenson